11 February 2012, 3:23 pm
So for about a month, I get a crush on one of my co-workers named Brian. One of my other co-workers, Sam, tries to set me up with Brian cause Sam thinks Brian likes me. Brian use to always pick on me, sit with me at lunch, and talk to me. Finally, Sam gives me his number and I gain the courage to text Brian. We talk awhile. Then the next day we text some more. He starts getting into personal things then I ask him if that's all he wants is sex, and he said that's all he's currently looking for so I thought about it and thought it wasn't a good idea seeing as how I actually like him as a person. We text some more and he asks to hang out. We watch tv for awhile and It gets late and I lean on him to rest and he holds me and the next thing I know one thing leads to another and we go all the way. Then the same thing happens a couple nights later. At work, he doesn't act the same. He barely talks to me and barely looks at me and to top it off, flirts with another girl. He wouldn't answer my texts outside of work until finally a couple days later he tells me he can't do this again. Work goes on and he still acts the same. A few nights later, we both arrived to work at the same time and no one else is around and he asks me, "So no hard feelings right?" and I said, " I guess." then he says, " i just couldn't do it. that's just not me." We still work together and it hurts so much cause I fell so hard for him. It doesn't help he lives down the street from me. I just care about him so much and I haven't felt this way in a long time since my ex bf I dated 4 years ago. I got that same feeling when Brian touched me that I never thought I would feel again. It's almost too good to be true. That's why I just hate to let him go cause of how I feel. I long for him so much. I fell way too fast, but I feel like there is nothing I can do. I just can't stand working with him. He's so funny and outgoing, it's hard not to laugh at what he says. I just hate how I gave in and didn't get to know him. He probably thinks I'm a slut or whore for what I did, but I didn't think anything else would ever come of it nor did I think it would end so soon. I also feel disgusted with myself. That's the story in a nutshell. Any advice or comments would be greatly appreciated cause I don't know what to do.... Read More »
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